If I may say this , this is probably you finally having recognized your true self , not only through self acceptance , I can tell that the inner of you is ready to genuinely bloom as well. I’m just glad that this , for you isn’t about the money, it never will be anyways. It probably has more to do with life , to experience and perhaps it’s teachings.
Lately a few weird but good things have been happening. You’ve been attracting a new sort of, kind of energy, filled different people. The kind it took awhile to notice but the kind you somehow have always been aware of, but was perhaps not ready yet to explore.
We guess, you can probably be called a Plumber now, your skills have improved, you like the pipes and the pipes like you, also particularly your communication skills with other human beings isn’t as bad as it was before, well maybe, plus I guess you don’t only try and just tolerate them , you are probably trying to understand them a little better now. We have to admit dealing with other human beings was never your thing and if there was a way or options that you could survive without having to interact ,you wouldn’t and not because you think you are better off no, I guess this energy exchange while interacting has always been a big deal for you and its okay for you to want to protect it and not wanting to share it with just anyone, especially the awkwardly, unexplainable random individual has always been one of those situations you found difficult to deal with , so I guess it is still a work in progress and it is probably not as promising as it sounds but with all honestl one can say it is worth your while. You’ve met very unique male human beings and a few cool beings of your kind [women] , A connection such as Julia’s [Body positive] totally caught you off guard. Instant chemistry , well or at least that’s how you felt and it is almost a little sad, and you are probably feeling sorry, because not everyone from the human race will get a taste of such a strong well gifted and beautiful divine, feminine energy. It’s almost priceless. Be glad that you did and forever be grateful, yet you also still crave to meet her physically and perhaps while experiencing one of her many “magical cereimonial conventions”, a genuine conversation can be held and just maybe only than, all the thirst to your questions filled curiosity can be quenched. [LOL]
The other connection in particular is a reconnection. Well, you’re not one to recandle any dying threads of long ago, melted wax because if we have to admit not all reconnections end up all flourishing or exciting as before but this one came with a thrill, a good kind of thrill. The kind that’ll make you want to try and give it another shot, to what’s left of “life” and it’s other many companions such as “love” , “care” , “understanding”, “listening” “compromises” etc,ect. Well the good news is that, this time around, there’s more experience involved, sort to say the bachelor’s of “relations” have been aquired and will be used for the good only, this time around. This reconnection has the kind of imperfections and flaws that are terrifyingly beautiful, let’s not even start with how the attitude on them is insanely sexy and attractive and has unconsciously managed to capture almost all of you, them pure heart and soul that humbly only demands for the same emotions it pours out and their approach alone towards life, has not only caught some of your attention but there’s a certain interesting uniqueness of it that you’re fond of. It is almost as interesting as your own ways towards it [Iife], theirs are just a little more serious of course and within observation there is a very opinionated character of them, which you immediately recognised and could relate to yet which you obviously also strongly respects and understand.
You literally think it is cool, the fact that they see yellow, when you see black When they say no, you whished they’d just agree or when they’d use phrases such as “I don’t know” when the both of you know they do know. One can tell that it fascinates you, with how two people with almost the “same” drive of force towards life and yet can totally be so different from the other. Most of the time this reconnection can be loud and other times, it worries you because it can awkwardly also get quiet. You’re still getting it used to the “grumpy” mornings but at least your sleeps at night are more peaceful now.
Dear plumber , child always remember to embrace this moments and don’t you ever forget the beauty that will alway lies in the struggles, give yourself more credit and celebrate you little achievements more often and thus also do not forget to give your thanks and gratitude. Always. Stay awaken for you are chosen and prepare to break the cycle of generational curses.
Yours sincerely
The Plumber